This morning was the first morning in a while where I was able to sleep in (8:15) and go out on our deck and spend time in the Word and praying through the Psalms of the day. I have struggled in this area and I know many people struggle here for consistency. I think the biggest frustration that I face is that when I sit down to read, that I feel pressed by time and that I have to get to work… Today was different because I did not have anything making demands on my time. I guess it is the tyranny of the urgent that draws me away. The other frustration when I sit to read is that I will not have enough time to read with intention and to be able to think about what I am reading, rather I struggle with how much time do I have.
Sometimes, I think that if I were in ministry, that this would not be true because I would be able to take the necessary amount of time to read through and meditate on a passage, but something tells me that might not be true either. Right now, I “punch” the clock and have to account for every hour that I am at work (secular). In ministry, it is different, you are not “punching” the clock so to speak, you are accountable for your time, but not to the extreme as in a secular job.
I know that I am not the only one who struggles in this area. Anyone else care to be transparent?